E. Lexi Abbott

 

I’m trapped inside
This skin you’ve made
It’s much much worse
Than any cage
It moves with me
Wherever I go
I used to guess
But now I know
I can’t keep living
In the dark
Can’t have a fire
With no spark
I can’t keep pretending
To be who you want me to be
I can’t keep wearing this
It isn’t me.
My wings strapped down
My mouth taped shut
The chains made of iron
The ground made of mud
I so want to be
Myself again
So one day soon
I’ve got to shed this skin
It’ll be painful then
This I know
And it’ll be a hell of a show
But when it’s all said and done
I’ll show my true self
And fly towards the sun.
This skin you’ve put me in is getting too tight

Here’s to the ones the proud the few

heres to the ones who look like you

so beaten and battered on the inside and out

so full of fear anger and doubt

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There are colors

within every boy and girl

and with those colors

they paint the world

 

The easy part

is going out to play

the hard part

is getting those colors to stay

 

Everyone is born an artist

but while we go through the ages

we may lose our colors

as we go through life’s stages.

 

So I say to you now

try and keep a young mind

try and make your colors

stand the test of time

 

Help to paint the world

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I can feel the Love inside of me.

As deep and vast as the bearing sea

Your arms my castle

Your eyes my sky

To show you I Love you and you not ask why

 

I can feel the Hate inside of me

It’s embers burn deep holes indeed

The want to fight

The want to kill

To take out my enemies, their blood I spill

 

I can feel the Sadness inside of me

Tears so plenty it creates a river so deep

The feeling of loss

The feeling of being alone

The Sadness you feel when you lose your Home

 

I feel the Fear inside of me

A Fear so great I cannot flee

My heart pounding in my chest

The blood draining away

The Fear that I may not live today

 

I feel the emotions inside of me

So deep so pure I do decree

The human experience

The human mind

Is what drives us all until the end of time.

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Today is the day that

I saw my inner soul

And I have to say that I was not

filled with fear at all

 

It was a glimmering and shimmering

hope within the night

It filled me with dreams

and a brand new light

 

Even though there were shadows

where the demons would come to play

The light of my soul is what overcomes them

every single day

 

And though over time

our souls do grow weary 

It really isn’t what others make it

it’s really not so dreary

 

Just keep a hold of your hopes and dreams

and keep them close to you

for your soul will never truly grow old

it’ll just take on a different hue.

 

Today is the day that I saw my inner soul

and I am glad to say that I did not fear at all.

 

 

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She was a lovely woman

when she was very young

her hair was soft and healthy

words quickly bounced off her tongue

 

Her lips were red as roses

her skin as fair as the rule of a good king

her shape was smooth and lively

her heart’s good showed in her being

 

But now that she has grown older

her heart is the color jade

her words cut and are more bitter

her face kept in the shade

 

She trusts no one anymore

and lives a lonely life

once she was young and married

once she was a happy wife

 

but the years went by

her husband died

her kids left and never came back

 

Everyone she ever helped

when she needed them,

turned their back

 

but there is something that she does love

a little creature, small in size

and when she calls out his name

he comes and stares into her eyes

 

this creature is her helper

a little friend that once came

and once he was in her life

he never left again

 

This creature is a black soul

his horns a twisted into claws

he keeps his size small

so that she would not fret at all

 

so this beautiful soul of a woman

grown bitter with the years

has no clue that her friend is a demon

as a cat he does appear

 

She is the guarded woman

and never again will be alone

for her and her demon cat make quite a happy home.

 

One day a little chirping bird

said unto me

“Don’t you wish you could fly away

and be truly free?”

 

“My wings carry me away

to great distant lands

feeling the soft wind beneath them

doing as my mind commands.”

 

And I looked to the little bird

and a smile spread across my face

“Why yes I wish I could fly with you

to that special place.”

 

“The place where no one cries

and no one is in pain

the place where we can truly  love

every part of ourselves again.”

 

and as this bird and I talked

and the sun began to set

I felt my back moving

a pair of wings I did get.

 

With elated smile

and cheer escaping my mouth

I leapt to fly into the air

and circled round my house.

 

Now me and that bird keep flying

each and every day

to distant lands and sunsets

we fly so far away.

 

How did those wings grow, you ask?

Upon my back that day?

Well who am I, a chirping bird

to really and truly say?

 

This world is filled with magic

with things not yet known

so just close your eyes and leap into the air

your wings will carry you home.